Friday, December 31, 2010

Goodbye 2010

2011 is coming. I am going to end 2010 with 2 more new blogs and 1 youtube upload account.

First one... Raina http://simonloveraina.blogspot.com/
Second... APPLE http://simonloveapple.blogspot.com

Youtube upload channel about Raina http://www.youtube.com/user/4everRaina

Hope I will be able to make full use of all these resources so that I can focus on my own world. See you next year!!!


2011 Design Resolutions
Digital art selected for the Daily Inspiration #706

Monday, December 27, 2010

I am back

Since the main Blog of mine has been locked as I have too many secrets in it. I will make full use of this blog to share everything with you all. Love to see you all again! And thanks for reading my blog. Have fun in the near future.


Monday, September 6, 2010

The day has come

Today is the day that I need a change in life. Looking forward for today to come. Thanks for pushing hard on me and I am being force to do this. I agree that some pressure are good and some are bad. But from the way I look at the situation right now. Everything seem to be the good one for me.

Thank you for being with me so long. I am moving on and this blog will not be update anymore from now on. I need my space and I don't wish to share my thinking to anyone ANYMORE. Goodbye!!!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Sunday... Great day ahead

Wa... Open post once in the morning. Expect more timely update later on because of my itchy hand. Just wanna share something here from Steve job... iTunes Logo has been changed without the CD behind

OLD LOGO

NEW LOGO

Why is that so? Cos steve said that music has been moved from CD to digital. That is why he took out the CD behind which is old technology to him. It really make sense.

10:25 am - Sad mood.... war movie made me realise how lucky I am. I was thinking that 8 hrs of walk with 40kg of load on my body.... And I managed to complete the walk. What is more to go in my life? Is that something more difficult than that? Most to most some sleepless night, eyes and body tiring and out of focus. But I knew that I have that kind of determination in my body that I can do anything. Keep this mindset and ready for the battle ahead. I am not going to lose my life in war.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Day of rearrangement

Mum has started to ask me rearrange the whole place in order to get ready for my sister's wedding in OCT. Oops.... If my door really become a giant iPhone, will it be very funny when photo taking on that day? HAHAHA.....

Anyway, both my sister grown up liao.... Time flied.... Still remember 3 of us were playing with the stupid Tape recorder when we were small. So fun!

Suddenly mother mention about 3 of us were in Banking industry but nobody stepped into Property line. This is her wish.... haha! Who can fulfill?



Something that haven't been posted for quite a while after reservist. The thing below is 5 years service award from NS. Ya... thank hor... seem like it is saying "thank for feeding the mosquito for 5 successful years".... haha!



19:30 Went for run... a very different run this time round. But I started with the Worst moment of the day. Almost knocked down by a car when I ran out from car park. Because I was listen to my mum's iPod and didn't sense the car was just beside me. It was lucky that the female driver horned me. (i should said she may just drove slower whereby I almost reached the running path by then, and gave me an idiot look)

Today tried to run different route due to my Nike + equipment not with me. But I managed to run quite a long distance without slow down. The most fun part was running into the forest trail which required me to take every step carefully.

Ya... suddenly I found that a lot of nice song in my mum's iPod but not mine. Let share some here.





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Friday, September 3, 2010

Relax week

What a relax week that I have. Started to pick up everything that I left since the day I went into ICT. My room is planning out the decoration and one of the best part is to convert my Door into a Giant iPhone screen. I am still calculating the dimension and ratio in order to get the best result. And would like to put "三十而立" into an artistic way on my wall. Haha.... very excited but provided I able to apply leave on the coming weeks.

Read the post from my sister and agree that we should look for the small achievement everyday instead of big one. So that we will not feel so useless. But to be specific, I should use the Big achievement and break it down into smaller pieces to fit into everyday life.

Went to Comex and found that PC show is getting more and more boring. Nothing really great is selling. Credit card and telco are everywhere.... hai....! Don't try to bluff me in the news again by saying that they have profit.... cos I really don't think so.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

The plan that get the whole world


This is Apple TV.... a small device that steam everything that you have onto your TV. It start with a big body with harddisk inside. It was because not much people own a MAC at that point of time. But is totally different story right now.

Steve Job's plan is working now. If Apple TV going to be a big hit in the market. It mean that both MAC and iPod is selling very very well whereby both device work extremely well with it. The whole world is going to get under control sooner or later if APPLE manage to sell their product over their rivals.

Go Steve.... kill QVOD and make everyone pay for their share instead of stealing online

賊喊捉賊!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Alone

A day walking alone at orchard road, a day found myself so lonely, a day found that everyone seem like looking down on me, a day have a lot of though but not able to organize them, a day don't even dare to look at others when walking, a day have no idea on what I going to do next, a day like this..... WASTED!!!!

I went to Muji and got some material to rearrange my life. Some small exercise books that same size as those we used in Sec school and some color pencils. I am going to note down Cooking menu, iPhone apps ideas, photography skill and gift ideas on all these books. I believe that organized life is the way to move on.

2 songs from Wang Lee Hom... time to do something and everyone know what I going to do next. hehe









8:45.... Angry Mode! Just because of one "STUPID, IDIOT, FUCKING, CB" bread that extra charge by the cashier when I bought bread from orchard. My mum keep nagging at me about it. Is just a Buck more of money, why have to keep nagging on me? I did check when the cashier was scanning the bread. Why should I check again on the receipt when both my hand were full of things? Fuck!!!! is that something in my mind that put me into angry mode now? Sorry.... need time to cool down

9:15.... why am i the one who is wrong? Why have to blame on me? Why I get cheated and yet I am the one who is wrong? Is just how you looking at a half glass of water..... is half full? or half empty?

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Fairness of life

I have a "CHOU KENG" friend in the camp. He tried all his best just not to go outfield for this ICT. What happen next was that he managed to "siam" the whole exercise. Good for him..... but when came to all the administrative works he was in hell. All those things that were nasty all fell onto him. My point here is that SOMEONE or SOMEHOW things will fine tune themselves. The best part was that my dearest friend(Darren) went over to this "CHOU KENG" guy and laugh at him. And the guy went over to Darren's bed when he was sleeping and slam the whole bed. WTF? Was that going to make up anything? Let him be... just another idiot in life. This is just one of the example. The biggest KARMA here was that.... for those "CHOU KENG" people that we have in the camp. They will have to redo the whole exercise again during November!!!! WAHAHAHA!

Most importantly, those people who don't have the quality in themselves will never have a chance to survive long enough in this society. Time will tell, it just not the time yet.

This blog is transforming to my daily soon rather than record my thinking.

This ICT has provided me a long spare time for my life revolution. Although most of the time my brain was blank due to physical training. I considered this ICT as my best break in this year provided I never go to HK end of year. Lot of things has been set for the rest of the year and I planned to change my working environment. Not by quit my job but to change the system as well as the way I handle my job. Giving myself one last chance for a year more to stay in my current job. I will do something to prove my value and let those people regret of how they judged me.

Is a very very nice sunny saturday. I will be going down to the Cement Jungle at orchard to walk around. At least I will not get mosquito bite there.

Nice song by G.E.M.


Sunday, August 22, 2010

Satisfy result for this weekend bookout

I got myself pretty good result on how much works I did during this weekend although most of the time is sitting on my sofa. Would like to see more things to be done on next week because my life will be back to normal again after this reservist.

Praying hard that the sky juice don't fall during my 4 days 3 nights. I don't like wet underwear feeling. hahaha!

Anyway, I would like to see myself change after this reservist (of course to the better one).

I flipped through my photo album and found that medium length hair suited me the most. Shall I keep my hair longer a bit? :)

My doggy not very happy about wearing his Jersey again. But I think it will do him good by not scratching his body so much. Hope he can recover soon.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Songs






泳:在你的記憶裡面有一個我
在你最痛苦的時候陪你度過
難過過了天晴朗了我就走
峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
在你的面前我不必保留
還來不及對你說遲到的我的心動
泳:你的好你的壞
峯:我的脾氣你最懂
泳:我不要你來心疼我
峯:我不要你離開我
合:明天的以後我們會懂
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟
泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心
合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你

峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
在你的面前我不必保留
泳:我從來沒對你說壓抑的我的心動
峯:我的好我的壞我的脾氣你最懂
泳:我不要你來心疼我
合:明天的以後我們會懂
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟

泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心
合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你

泳:愛情總讓人折磨
峯:所以我們才選擇
合:做比情人更好的朋友
泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心

合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你












Extracted from my dearest sister FB post

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!








Friday, August 20, 2010

Another book out day that back to civil life

Hey, Back again but this time round I am good and fine. Nothing I am going to complain much cos some improvement done in myself. Will list down later.... Now I am stuck with this song that from a Lovely silver iPod.

Over you - Daughtry



Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


Very very nice song and Lyric ESPECIALLY!

Few things that have been sorted out during this reservist. I have some must do things before end of this year

  • Repaint my Room
  • Get new furniture for my room
  • Create my very first iPhone apps
  • Complete my Diploma course no matter how my school going to screw it up
  • Start of my driving license course
  • Make myself less "ah Beng" and think positive always
  • of course one last thing - Improve my english
Timeline will be schedule during the next 4 days 3 nights of IN CAMP exercise. I will need pen and paper to mark down and draw out my final plan.

This week, went for 3 days 2 nights exercise with not much Kissed from Mosquito. Thanks to my dear camp mate Samson who brought me to army market and got a pair of nice gloves. It was kind of LONG exercise to me as I have not been went through this for long time. Tired, butt pained (as I sat for long time), back pained (as I have nothing to lean against), neck pained (as I have to sleep with helmet on) and leg pained (as I have not much space in the tank and have to fold my leg for long hours). Anyway, I felt like I backed to 7 years ago after the whole exercise. At least I have all my closest friends to chiong with me. FYI, most of my friends has not went to the exercise as they have provided lot of stupid excuses. I didn't blame them as they still have no motive in their life. I started to view things in a more positive view and "WHY" they behaved in "this" way.

Lot of though running through my brain right now. I think I have to stop cos I don't wish to type out all my though with Poor english! haha

tomorrow I will be back to office in the very early morning to capture the sun Rise as well as settle some email. Hope tomorrow will be a sunny day!


Sunday, August 15, 2010

手札情緣

Same theory, different result when you looking at the same thing in different angle.

Why? why would that happen? why I will be able to see clearly when I am not involve in but fell into it when apply on my situation?

Next week I will give myself a best gift by go to CBD area to take the sunset in a form of TimeLapse. That is what I wanna do for so so long. I will love to see the Big Wheel turning.....

Love this quote... If I able to say it out that will be great "The way I see it, I got three choices. One, I can shoot him. Two, I can kick the crap out of him. Or three, I leave you. Well, all that's no good. You see, 'cause none of those options get me you."

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Condition

I am suffering from this term

Temporomandibular Joint Disorder (TMJ Disorder)

for my Jaw as well as ear pain. The causes may lead to my wisdom tooth on my upper right. Because if I have to use my tongue to push my wisdom tooth, I will be able to feel the pain. So, Simon will go for dental check up after reservist. Definitely will go as that is no joke.

Right ear has gained back 90% of hearing. Good sign!!!

Tonight dinner was very very nice and I think I actually consume my whole of last week food into my stomach. Next week reservist can have lesser food as I have 3 days 2 nights to go. Biscuit will be my best friend... pic attached below












Here comes the boring man who took out his new toy and tried to capture time lapse for his very first time. Hope you guys will like it.




You know it? Really Know it? Shut up please....

Trying hard not to listen to others conversation as I knew that I am going to be frustrated by them. But somehow my left ear was having some hearing problem and it leaded me to listen much more carefully on any sound.

I am not the best in anything but somehow the best thing that I knew about is technology. People around me was so affected by the stupid iPhone 4 antenna problem which IT WASN'T A PROBLEM AT ALL. May all people around me stop mentioned it again.

I will try to look for some special spare time to play around my new accessary for my 550D.... the thing that I waited for so long.

Mmmm.... using those normal handphone is such a pleasure that they don't really need to charge so often compare to iPhone. But the consequences is that, nothing to play with it... only call and sms! Stupid!!!

Sammi still the best and I like the lyric so much... sweet!



Wa... HeBe new song and the way it film the video is so nice! I can learn from it


p.s. After typing this not very long blog... my finger itchy again.... scratching hard now!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Back to civil life

I think I am suffering inside the stupid camp rather than enjoy. Most of my body system has been destroyed by this in camp training.

  • My right ear is "Weeeeeee" now... can't really hear properly due to some idiot firing beside me.
  • Both of my hands suffer heavy attack by Mosquito during our night exercise. Pic below


  • Legs suffer from Boots that long haven't been wear. Bruise on them but lucky I didn't get blister during my 8 km walk thanks to the Lovely protect stickers.

  • Shoulder in pain due to carry of heavy weapons. Why I have so many heavy weapons? All those people in the world know how to CHOA KENG... I am the only one who don't but somehow people still think that I am not hardworking enough.
  • Back pain due to sit in the Armor Vehicle for more than few hours in the same position.
  • My left Jaw still in pain whenever I was trying to open my mouth to eat
  • Left wrist suppose to be recover from last year injury when I was in Camp training. But the pain is back this year again.
I even carried some of my phobia to this year whereby I suffer a fall from the army lorry. I don't dare to carry more than 2 things when I climb up the lorry. Such a Useless me.... Sad!!! Last time i can even jump over some low wall without any problem. But this year both my legs were cramp in the mid air of the jump. And landed with a crappy pattern.



I love the song below so much that is from ITO YUNA....

"Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure"




p.s. After my mum looked at my hands, she cried and blame the government for bring her son to this kind of place for torture. My answer to that is..... Low Education + Don't know how to Choa Keng = The idiot in life = Simon Liu

actually I ate very very little when I was in camp. 3 days never went to do big business.... cos less intake = Less Output

Monday, August 9, 2010

Last before I go into reservist

So much things happened today. Anyway, I have enjoyed myself so much this weekend and I hope that every weekend will be special to me in the near future.

Time to pack up soon. But before hand I will have to meet up my old friend from Japan. Time is up... going down to meet him


1:36 am.... Yeah.. just got my TC-80N3 remote for my canon EOS!

6:14 am.... something still missing for my ICT... looking it up and down still... booked a cab at 7 am. Whole body no strength cos of not enough sleep. Don't tell anybody that I brought 2 phones in. One no camera - for show. One K810i - for my daily task which provide me internet connection. Who the hell will take pic about army? stupid!!!!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Missing.... things

My room is full of junks and I realized that I lost something important. I have been looking for it up and down before I remembered that "thing" was lend to someone. I will have to arrange my leave application next week so that I will be able to rearrange my room as well as re-decorate it.

The iPhone's earphone always spoil at the right time when I am going to change to the next version. Good job steve.... or should I say good job simon who like to put it anyhow?

I was trying to bring my laptop out to living room for blogging. But I carelessly stepped on my Brandy's leg. Oops... Sorry! Brandy!!!

I was watching "家好月圓“ and realized that TVB show like to pair up a couple whose were in different society's level. Hahaha.... I will be able to predict every single show in the future for those TVB series.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Processing

Stomach Pain (due to lack of foods and drinks for the past 12 hrs) --> Woke up from sleep on Sofa --> Big business @ T --> Blog reply from B --> Hot shower --> EVERYTHING SEEM TO BE BETTER NOW!

Since I was able to point out all my mistakes. I already knew the question in my mind. I will have to look for the answer to solve everything out and my life will be back on track.....

The most mysteries thing happen on my social network. My friend's list was getting smaller and smaller. Sound logical? I don't think so... but somehow I am experiencing it. Never mind, get rids of those ah Zhu and ah Gou from my life and keep all my best friends. Best friends not "true" friends that they declared themselves to be.

Thank you for all the concern from my friends. My life is not that suck yet.... Have a laugh on below video clip.









11:56am I realized how important is a blog as well as daily. They are the best friend for those people who do not have close friend. Yeah.... I have become part of this gang. Anyway when I reached home last night. My mother sensed that I was not in good mood. She asked me what happen and I kept quiet. Early in the morning she went to market and got my favorite drink. Sweet.... and Thank you mother! Only you know me well




Friday, August 6, 2010

Nothing

Being myself in this world for 30 years time. I have achieved nothing so far.

Sitting all alone @ boat quay, my phone was in silent if I never turn on any music. I have failed to be a good lover as I was not able to work hard toward the future. I have failed to be a good friend as I was not able to pay attention to my close friends. I have failed to be a good brother as I didn't trust my sister's advices. I have failed to be a good son as I spend most of my time on MAC when I was home while my mother was working so hard to manage the home. I have failed to be a good colleague as I was not able to help out much at work. I have failed to be a good owner as my dear doggy always carry a sad face when he was trying to get my attention while I was busy on my MAC. I have failed to be a good blogger as my english standard is so poor that people have a hard time to understand.

Was that a warning sign? I am nothing to anyone right now.... seem like everyone can live happily without my present.

I am having nothing! May consider to move my blog or somehow close it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

I got myself a complaint

I have received a complaint from one of my close friend mentioned that my blog contained a lot of grammar mistake and hard to understand. This close friend of mine gave up on reading my blog eventually and logged a complain to the blog owner. Oh god.... It is time to do something about it. So, from today onward I am going to spend more time on correcting grammar mistake on each of my upcoming post.

Somehow I would like to thank you my friend for spending so much time and tried so hard to understand some of my stupid posts that not written in english (of course I wrote every posts in english but in broken term).

4 more days to my annual reservist. I have a lot of things have to pack this time round. And I am going to get more foods on this sunday. I will be able to talk cock sing song with all my old buddies soon.


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Back to irritating blog

Haha... I just put the stupid music element beside of my blog which is the song that I keep listening for most of my day. Hope people will like it as well as the blog background has been change due to I need a new image to present myself to the world.

I am trying hard to get myself back to track once again. Hopefully everything will work it out the way I want it to be after my reservist for 3 weeks. That is a very long reservist I ever have. Just pray hard that our A-Tech will pass and I don't have to do much for the next 3 years. Yeah!!!!

Lost and Gain... No pain No gain!!! Everyone only have 24 hrs per day. How to squeeze so many things in a day without screw it up? That will need a lot of planning and determination.


Some friends of mine in office that claim to be my "true friend" has blocked me in a chat software. That is TRUE friend..... thank for leave me as soon as I fully put my trust in you. That is the way how people treat me when I have nothing to contribute. When I have no common topic. When I just trying my best to be friend with them. When I did so much yet I have ask for nothing in return. THANK YOU!!!! YOU have let me see the real world....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Appreciation or sick of it?

This post is suppose to remind myself that even repeat the same thing again and again in everyday life. I need to appreciate what I am doing as that is a kind of happiness.

Love is the funniest thing that it base on this chemical name Benzole lactamic acid (苯氨基丙酸) to react accordingly. Why is that chemical keep decreasing when the time that spend together getting longer? Why can't it stay at the same level for whole life? Have read a lot of chinese post today from SWEETSWEET.NET and manage to conclude all post into today's blog. I will say that as 2 person just getting together. Whenever they do something for each others. It will be a bonus as you do not have any requirement from you love one. But once both party getting together long enough to share their life together. The demand just getting larger and larger. Especially when they start to compare with each other that who gave out their LOVE the most. The ugly truth is shown and no equation can ever calculate who LOVE the most.

一男一女走到一起..身體裡面會有一種激素..
苯氨基丙酸就會增加分泌..令你情緒很高漲..會有一種喜悅的感覺..
當濃度不斷增加..兩個人同時受到這種激素的影響..感情就會去到最濃..
這種狀態和關係..就可以定義為愛情..


Monday, August 2, 2010

uncomforted teeth

Sooner or later I will have to remove my wisdom teeth as they keep biting on my fresh around my Jaws. And I have a hard time to open my mouth when I wound like to have my meals. Hai.... Why they called wisdom teeth? becos those who remove them is clever, those who keep them is stupid... wahaha

Some rare friends of mine call and message me today. And what is regrading? As usual, make use of my knowledge. So do I look stupid to give out my knowledge to help them? Yes!!!

Sometime I have to say that being friend is base on a simple equation

Friend = you make use of me + I make use of you

if one of the condition is wrong. No Friend

Soon I will have to review my friend list as most of my friend really know how to make use of others.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Question and Trust

Such a boring sunday that I have nothing great about my life to blog with. I have plugged in my HIFI system to my lappy but somehow I didn't play any song out. Think I am sick of all the songs that I have and need more time to rearrange iTunes.

Here is my question of the day. Will you wait for your love one to tell you certain things when you in doubt (i mean not even hint your love one that you wanna know about it and let them tell you naturally) or you will just post as a casual question and get the answer?

My answer is A! I choose not to ask at all.... ! hehehe

Get Myself Back


The round sun returns to the blue sea that is spread out in front of my eyes
And the light that rains down from the clear sky cleanses my slightly weary heart

I was always so stubborn
I even lied to myself
No destination is printed
On my unrolled, white map

*The seasons shift again and carry a new foreboding
I won't understand it if I keep my eyes closed
Even though this world is so beautiful
I substituted my unsuppressable and dark feelings for the right path
Get myself back again
I wasn’t born for the sake of feeling pain

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I won’t fear standing alone if it’s for the sake of protecting the things I believe in
I travel back and forth to the same place in search of my lost feelings
Like a small wave

I was only looking ahead
And was almost engulfed by insecurity
Right now the important words
Lie in the scenery I saw back then

*repeat

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I scoop up the tears running down my cheeks
Lured by the wind the stars start to shine
And my tear-streaked cheeks sparkle even brighter
I wave bye-bye to my complaints and excuses
Freed from my heavy shackles I can start to walk again

*repeat

I have overcome everything that has been thrown at me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I will wipe my tears away because there’s still so much ahead of me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I’m all right now. Everything will surely turn out okay

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I am moving backward

No typo error above. I really moving backward. The feeling is so suck that my brain is totally blank right now. No feeling, no nothing! Why am I still have to do something that I use to do in the past for today? Why must I push myself back to the past? I wanna move on. I suppose to have a new life.

Time to think hard so that I know what is the thing that I need to get rid of.

*note - I am editing the post after a NAP

Can't believe that I am that tired until I actually fall asleep after dinner at 9:30 till not 11:30. Haven't shower yet cos I am thinking what will happen if I go shower and gain back all the energy? Never mind, life still go on. Looking at my sister beside me who fall asleep already but massaging her leg at the same time. So enjoy in her own world. I may consider doing the same later after shower.

Anyway, this week I am quite happy with everything I have done so far. Keep it up and hope that nobody screw me up further. Saw a FB post from my colleague that is kind of sick of the current job.... I do agree with that as their is no challenge anymore in this job but lot of shit. Let look forward for my stupid BMC to complete my diploma course so that I can have a better chance to prepare for new challenge somewhere else. BOSS suck hard as useless people keep staying around me whereby those people have better quality support all those idiot....! GO TO HELL and get your KARMA!

*note again - I am just after shower continues this post 12:00 now

Refresh after shower, really! Jialet.... anyway, since I start this stupid job topic and my BOSS is already involve here. I might as well go all the way. To dear boss, if you happen to not knowing what I am talking above - you are IDIOT! If you know what i am talking above - you are simply a person who like people to lick your Fxxxing boots that you wearing everyday that is why all those useless people may stay around, doing nothing and JUST LICK LICK LICK your boots.

Somehow I was chatting with one of the user today and complaining how useless is application team people when their application not running and start blaming the PC got problem. Yet, this application engineer saw the chat box. User was saying that lucky my name has been changed but who care. I am just stating the fact and I am afraid of no one. Come and challenge me with the knowledge on trade floor.... I am fucking 3 years old here!!!! And to add in more oil. My colleague ask me why I am still here after 3 years of torture. Errrmmmm.... Can I slap him? Why must ask this kind of question when you know the answer? Never mind, I am just glad that I am still here. I am just glad that I know all the good people here. All I really want to do is to transform myself into someone that change the usual way of work flow to make them all suit it my way before I move on. Everything is in my hand, I choose my life! I own it!

I have a good sleep final

Is raining early in the morning @ 4:35. Waiting for my usual cab driver now at blogging at the same time as I setup the easiest way to blog by sending email straight to my blog address.

I have a good sleep last night and there is nothing to do with the early rain. Is becos something has been settled by itself. Something that is so important to my next milestone of life. Thank you! Is all clear now and I may able to move on.

My cab is here!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Is so quiet now

I don't know what happen in myself as I keep waking up in the middle of the night without any reasons. I keep wondering what is bother me but couldn't find out the answer. Right now is 3:55. I have been tried very hard to fall back to sleep since I woke up at 3:30. Anyway, thank to my "un-shutdown" Macbook that is why I am blogging right now. Full of though in my mind yet couldn't solve out. Is just like a huge mess of things inside a room but some how no boxes to contain the items so that can arrange nicely.

No worry, it will get sort out eventually as long as I know what is the goal in my life.

What if a person left you in life is so important to you but somehow you are not able to figure out the mix feeling inside you and show others your emotion? Is that called cruel? or heartless? or cold blood? I don't know, that is how I feel right now. Can't figure out but somehow I able to list down the Goods and Bads for everything. Maybe I am just being too calculative.

Time to really wake up now and prepare for a new day. "GOOD MORNING TUE" as usual.... I am very lucky on Tuesday so far. So let the luck flow into me right now.

BTW, I am going to move all those funny photos that I have with my family to the side bar. With the speed of my blogging right now. Tomolo the post will be gone man. I am very deeply affected in blogging! Maybe is the life changing state. More rubbish and though to be post here.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Moving on Need a lot of courage

Today mark the new chapter in life. Everything seem to be change just like that. My scar during the Tioman trip is in pain now. I don't understand why. Think that is part of my Karma that striking back. I will accept whatever that plan ahead. I know what I am doing. No matter what, I will go to the destination that I wish to go.

Raining day somehow at 6 something but already inside office. Alone for 3 and half hour before the next shift come in. Then received a email from Supervisor that Kenny have to go over to capsquare to help the idiot over there as he fall sick. What the hell is going on? Why people never do anything and fall sick can still keep his fucking job here....? What is going on? In the end I called up supervisor and make up my point that 2 person down and yet you still want 1 more engineer to help out. Am I look like superman? or my salary is 5 digit?

Lucky all my other engineers come in time. We enjoy ourselves around till end of work.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Blogging again

Inspire by someone deeply, I am back to my blogging time once again. Feeling that facebook is like no secret and always get stupid comment by others. Blog is still a better place for people to understand me more.

Today I got myself to run for 6km as the route that I usually run on has been diverted by MRT construction. Very happy feeling as I have my time to do those things that I love to. Especially those picture that I post below. Great feeling and I can manage my time well to learn more things.

Finish the TVB series called "when lane merge"! Such a nice show an the ending is so good that suit my point of view toward LOVE. She sacrify her own happiness just to let the guy have his own happiness. Love is not about to own that person but to make the person to have his/her happiness.



this is the trailer of the Gundam movie that I follow for this past 2 years.

I never like gundam at all in the past. But somehow this show has put me into this crazy model and comic world. Why? It is because the very first season that show 2 years ago. My daddy was sitting on the bed behind me, looking at me watching this show. After season 2 and finally coming to the end of everything that show on big screen as Movie. I will still have the illusion that my daddy actually sitting behind me and still looking at me while I watching this series.

At least he no longer suffer now. He will be happy if he able to see the photo that I took and make it as GIF to show off. Thank you father!

Family photo

family


I don't understand why everyone got 4 shots and whereby I only have 3 shots. Very hard to sync leh.... The photographer that going to take me next time please make sure is 4 shots! hor

Family

This is the very first photo that make up all these here.... thank sister! great idea! We having lot of fun
Family

Family

Nice Hair
Family

The Lamest of the day
Family

More Lame cos not enough photo to make it a nice sequence
The most funny thing is that someone tot I jump very high that is why my photo shot is so small.
Family

Family



Saturday, July 24, 2010

My expensive Hobby has been paid off

Got myself back to photography mood again as my whole family go for this wonderful outing at Marina. Even my mum enjoy so much. Thank to my Canon 550D DSLR camera!

Some of the photo will only available here as my sister don't wish to let anyone see in facebook. Please be patience as I will upload more when the long process of editing is complete. Hehe







First of all... let see this 4 pic that feature "should be only me" but somehow..... one person keep appear behind. And I have no photo of myself only for the whole day....

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone (Official Music Video )



I miss you!!!

Doing really almost nothing for this week during work. I don't really know where is my spirit gone to. But somehow I manage to cover others backside. What am I doing? should I do something for myself instead of others? What is the point of doing that when nobody going to appreciate it? Is this a cycle that when you work too long in the same department and you start to feeling sick of being there? I think I have to find the answer that will solve this problem.

Weekend is here... and I hope that I am going to enjoy the outing with my family later as we not going out for so long.








Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Love story




Why we always watching those show or movie about the process of getting 2 persons together. But not after that? Is because the argument and conflict will show up. End up both of them separate. That is the ugly truth but somehow apply on most of the relationship.

I would like to point out that trust and doubt is the main problem. They doubt and guessing are they the one that their LOVE one is looking for. Once they know the answer is true they fall in love with each other. But somehow after a period of time. They start to doubt each other again whether they still love each other or not. Isn't it funny? Since both of you fall in love because of trust. In the end will have to separate due to doubt.

Why leh?

Sunday, July 18, 2010

iPhone ANTENNA SONG


If you don't want an iPhone 4.... Don't buy it!!!
If you bought one and don't like it... Bring it Back!!!!

It seems like my whatever illness that build inside my body has gone and is time to come back once again after this annual sick period. The bad thing is that, I am going back for reservist when my body has fully recover. WTH

Saturday, July 17, 2010

REGRET

After a few days of stupid posting here and there. That is the only word I think it will be the best to suit into all my questions.
This is how I sub the word to everything. As long as everything that we did and it have no better way to work it out at that point of time. This is called "no regret" and that is the answer for my question.
If my love one will able to point out what I did is wrong at that point of time. I will learn and I will change to make it better. I will rather have no secret and no regret in a relationship.
So... I am good to go now! Time to start my engine....

Friday, July 16, 2010

Trust you










Song: trust you
Artist: Itou Yuna
Album: trust you
Other: Ending song for the anime Gundam 00 Second Season

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni
ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni
kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni
naze hito ha kizutsukeau no
naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,
rain moistens the Earth…
If everyone in this world want to live together,
why do they hurt each other?
Why do they separate?


kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada
itsumo kono kokoro mannaka
ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama
dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni
itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara
shiniteru yo mata aeru to
I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still
be in my heart.
With that tender smile, I get buried and
held in a fragment of you…
Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,
I believe we’ll meet one again.
I’m waiting for your love.


I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,
so don’t let go.


sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no
tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no
ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?
Who informed us of the Journey’s End?
I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,
I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in
because a light is waiting for you.


kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha
ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka
ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru
afureru kimochi no shizuku ga
atatakaku hoho tsutau
tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to
I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me
still lies within my heart.
Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.
The fragment of my overflowing emotions
streak down my warm cheeks.
I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.
I’m always by your side.


I love you, I trust you
kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga
I love you, I trust you
ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you
for you, I shed these tears.
I love you, I trust you
you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you.


Waiting for you love,
always by your side,
you’re the one that I love,
you’re the one that I trust,
you’re the only one.


I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness.
I love you, I trust you
be it sadness or happiness.
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect your everything.


donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you because we trust each other…
Don’t let go.



Yuna Ito-Endless story (English Lyric)


Endless Story (ENGLISH VERSION):

If you haven't changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I'm so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It's so hard to say I'm sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don't go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I'm missing you
please don't let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

iOS 4.1 doesn't fix the iPhone 4's death grip antenna issue

Who will be the FUCKING idiot don't use a casing on the best phone in this planet....? Come on man... get your life... stop posting this kind of stupid threat online

Resting day finally

Even though this week I am not the one who work the 5am shift. But somehow my body is very tired. Wake up frequently during the middle of night. And I am not able to get back to sleep after each wake up. Is a kind of torturing. I am not sure what is really in my mind that keeping myself so busy!
I hope that I will have a very good night for the coming 3 night and get back the momentum for my life.
Today is a very idiot day. As I get myself into misunderstanding suing the morning part and it seem like no one really understand me at all. Afternoon part is the army in camp training that made me walk 3 round of the stupid camp. What the hell.....
Anyway, my lowest point in life is coming soon. I can predict it as most of my things that around me start to get rotten up. Let it be and push me to the hell. Cos I really want to see the HELL!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Trust and Freedom

As age goes up, the network of friends has just expanded to the max. And I think that this network will shrink along the way. So what if the other half of you trying to catch up with all the friends that they have? Will you let them go? I mean will you let them go alone? or you will follow them through the whole process?
I will think that by following through is a kind of Romantic that both of them share the joy together. But the main point here is that, did you ever think of the though that your other half have? Will they feel that they have lost their freedom? or just because they are not able to trust their other half?
Now I realize that trust and freedom will have to addin one more thing called "Communication". If a couple will able to tell the truth toward each other on how they feel toward the situation. Will it be nicer to let your other half to really enjoy themselves? Will you just have all your trust on whatever they do when you know that they are going to be fine? Will you stop calling them when they are having their gathering?

Question here is that if your other half having a lot of admirer. Will you get jealous or you have all your trust on them?

I am still having a deep though about this... trying to figure out the balance in between.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Between Own and Treasure

I would have to say I choose to treasure rather than own it. Nothing in this world you can really own them. And how to define own? To have it all the way? Even get jealous when your other half is meeting someone else or getting anything from others? That is not the way to behave....
For me, I trust the person that I love. I believe anything that she said. I know that she feel the way I feel toward the same problem. I believe that something I don't need to say it out but she will tell me what is going on.
This is how I treasure, spend the time with your love one in quality.... not quantity.... seeing more of each other doesn't mean Love the other more. Is how you treat the moment when 2 person come together. Is how much you treasure the time when both spending together.

Monday, July 12, 2010

The path is going to get create

Someone has told me to focus but I can't as there are lot of distraction in my life. But it seem like all these minor problem has solved it along the way so far. I am glad to see that the trouble that I going to have will get less. And time for a good game in life. No let down and no drag back. It is time for me to follow what it written on my blog. �翔!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

达明一派 今天應該很高興




鬧市這天 燈影串串
報章說今天的姿採比美當天
用了數天 反復百遍
我將心聲附加祝福信箋寫滿
偉業獨自在美洲 很多新打算
瑪莉現活在澳洲 天天溫暖
望望照片 追憶串串
某一個熱鬧聖誕夜重現目前
永達共大傑唱詩 歌聲多醉甜
秀麗伴著樂敏肩 溫馨的臉
多麼多麼的高興
多麼多麼的溫暖
快樂人共並肩
今天應該很高興
今天應該很溫暖
只要願幻想彼此 仍在面前
我獨自望舊照片 追憶起往年
我默默又再寫 仿佛相見

i am feeling like this lyric

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Passion and Love = Crazy


someone beside me mentioned a very familiar phrase that I used to think about it. "If you were in the job that belong to your passion. You will never have to work a single day!"

But will it happen to most of the people? It didn't even apply on my current job too. Yes, I do like computer and troubleshooting. But how about it add on some political, command, OT and unreasonable request? And I don't even have my own time to work on those difficult question whereby I treat them as challenges. No body really can enjoy their own passion if money is involved. This is fact....

To me the greatest phrase in this universe is "Progressive increase". Win a soccer match and become champion for the year - Easy. Win few more soccer matches and crown yourself as champion in the following year - Hard. Having a great idea and turn it to income stream - Easy. Keeping your company alive and earn through every years of financial statement - Hard.

That is the point I would like to point out. Determination and some prediction of future will lead you to success. But to keep it going, you will need more than that. I am still trying to figure out how much more it needed but I will say it will be alot more than Determination every man can give.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Learning is a choice

So many people we heard from news that they are young with talent and earn a lot of money. I was wondering is it when the age has pass 30 and nothing is going to happen in life anymore? And you will be fixed in the cruel world?

You think learning is an option? My answer is HELL no! Why you have to look forward for a better salary? Why you have to increase your living standard? But u jus don't wish to increase the power of your UNLIMITED brain? Funny? Most of us did that....

Walking alone in the rain is not a funny thing. Doing so much and get nothing is small case. But worst still, no one appreciate. Yet SORRY this word is jus like a kind of deep breath that out from the mouth. Too many sorry yet too little things done. My point of view? Don't say it if you not going to change. The world.... SUCK!!!! hard!!!!!!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Finally I fall sick

After so long I finally fall sick. But gain alot during my MC day... as I know that who is my true friends and I have set my own goal for this year. Thank for the person that appear in my life to provide me inspiration.

Quote from the movie 500 days of summer....

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

But today... is the day that I realise alot of things and today is the day for another begin of life!

Monday, June 28, 2010

Sammi Cheng 鄭秀文 MV - How To Cry 如何掉眼淚

is how I feel right now....!

Appreciation

When all the things that you do is no longer appreciate by others.... what will you do? For my case, I will just simply give up and move on. As the love that you give is not worth it anymore. Of course this line will never apply on family member as they are part of my blood.

Is being too tired to carry on, doing so much yet no one ever care. Is time to focus, focus and focus on SIMON LIU's Life.... Get myself better and let my action speak for itself

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Quit....


After a night of "FUN" and getting over it for the whole morning till now.... which is 3:30 PM. I have set up myself some of the point that is very critical in my life. Base on the book "the DIP" from Seth Godin I have really quit some of the activities that making no sense to myself in my life. Time for all these things to be out of my life and making more room for my 2 years plan that going to make up my past 30 years of life.

Time is no longer waiting for me. I have to really choose on those things that I need and even people that affect me!